OK, this may be a FRAT and may be a bit of rambling but for some reason I just feel I need to tell people about my experience yesterday morning.
A little bit of a back story. This year has been a little bit of a tough year for me, I've kept my chin up and kept pushing forward because the rut will end, and what else am I going to do, just give up? No, not an option, Over the past 6 months I have gotten divorced, lost my grandfather to an incredibly ugly bout of cancer (We were VERY close), having to scrape by because I refuse to lose my house, lost my moderator spot on TMMAC (haha joking just trying to bring some humor), and this past week was the 8 year anniversary of losing my best friend right in front of me while I tried to save him.
Well on Sunday morning my 2 precious dogs who I love to death decided they wanted to eat at 6:30 am, not unusual during the week, but on the weekend we tend to sleep in and have puppy cuddle sessions, because who doesn't love that. So I get up to feed them, and after go and check my emails in my office. While in there I notice I left my blue mason jar on my desk (I have a blue one and a green one, I'm sure you can figure out what each one is for). So i said, hmm maybe I'll have those beautiful mushrooms for breakfast, why the fuck not right?
About 30 min go by and I'm starting to get the tingle, 45 min go by and my body is warm and I can "feel" everything. I go and get back in bed and start to play with my dogs. After a few min I just feel, what I can only describe as one of the most beautiful feelings I have ever experienced in my entire life. This feeling lasted for the duration of my adventure and carried on through out the day. It was such a feeling of intense love,
@Stillmatic said the universe was hugging me. The only way I could describe it was, in my mind, the love a new born child must feel when its mother holds it for the first time. Just unconditional love. It was amazing. It was beautiful. It made me feel good about myself and that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and things will get better. As I'm typing this I have tears forming in my eyes because of just how fucking beautiful it all was. I don't know how else to describe it, I have never felt anything quite like it.
So that's my little tid bit I wanted to share. Thanks to this community, most of you don't suck!
A little bit of a back story. This year has been a little bit of a tough year for me, I've kept my chin up and kept pushing forward because the rut will end, and what else am I going to do, just give up? No, not an option, Over the past 6 months I have gotten divorced, lost my grandfather to an incredibly ugly bout of cancer (We were VERY close), having to scrape by because I refuse to lose my house, lost my moderator spot on TMMAC (haha joking just trying to bring some humor), and this past week was the 8 year anniversary of losing my best friend right in front of me while I tried to save him.
Well on Sunday morning my 2 precious dogs who I love to death decided they wanted to eat at 6:30 am, not unusual during the week, but on the weekend we tend to sleep in and have puppy cuddle sessions, because who doesn't love that. So I get up to feed them, and after go and check my emails in my office. While in there I notice I left my blue mason jar on my desk (I have a blue one and a green one, I'm sure you can figure out what each one is for). So i said, hmm maybe I'll have those beautiful mushrooms for breakfast, why the fuck not right?
About 30 min go by and I'm starting to get the tingle, 45 min go by and my body is warm and I can "feel" everything. I go and get back in bed and start to play with my dogs. After a few min I just feel, what I can only describe as one of the most beautiful feelings I have ever experienced in my entire life. This feeling lasted for the duration of my adventure and carried on through out the day. It was such a feeling of intense love,
@Stillmatic said the universe was hugging me. The only way I could describe it was, in my mind, the love a new born child must feel when its mother holds it for the first time. Just unconditional love. It was amazing. It was beautiful. It made me feel good about myself and that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and things will get better. As I'm typing this I have tears forming in my eyes because of just how fucking beautiful it all was. I don't know how else to describe it, I have never felt anything quite like it.So that's my little tid bit I wanted to share. Thanks to this community, most of you don't suck!
